Lately fallings been easy on me like breathing used to be

Monday, September 24, 2007

She said lately fallings been easy on me, alot like breathing used to be...
Current mood: uncomfortable
Ughhh...it's been one of those nights. One of those nights that you just feel lost. No where you go feels like home, no one that you talk to feels like a friend, nothing seems quite right. I'd give anything in the world right now for some comfort. True comfort. Not feeling like I have to be witty and pretty so that people like me. Not feeling like the person next to me is in a constant one up competition. Not feeling like I have to impress anyone. Just someone or something that made me feel like it's okay to just be me. And I guess I'm getting tired of this endless search for it as well. So, I guess nothing will satisfy me right now. I'm tired of bandaids. You can put them on but eventually they fall off and 90% of the time, it's not healed. And if it is, it's just a scar that's still a reminder. and...you can't drink away scars, that's something I'm coming to realize.

She said, Lately, fallings been
Easy on me..a lot like breathing used to be
And call me crazy, but I was thinking
Maybe you'd be waiting on the ground
To come and catch me
And you come around here
You open up your wings
And I'm drowning
You open up your wings
And I'm gone"
She said, Maybe you're all the same
You say you'll never leave
Until you're gone again
And little pieces fall away
And I am left the fool
Clobbered and clumsy and slowly fading
And you come around here
You open up your wings
And I'm drowning
You open up your wings
And I'm gone"

I'm not into explaining.